葡萄

就如葡萄酸，我们每次都说得不到的是不好的。

可是当我们得到了，我们吃了那葡萄我们还是会用它与其他的葡萄比较它是否甜不甜。

当葡萄甜了我们又不会与他人分享。那么又发生葡萄酸的事件。

那么当分享时我们又怀疑那葡萄是否真的是酸，为何那人愿意和我们分享。 

恩典就是如此，就有如那葡萄。

Suddenly

I couldn’t come up with any words.
I really did not know I’d see you again.
Somewhere buried deep inside my heart.
I have longed and ached for you.

When I turn around I see the smiling face.
The face that is always there, behind me.
This dizzy feeling keeps me up at night.
Traces of you keep me crying again.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now.
Please.

I told myself I’d be fine alone.
That I could do well without you.
I tell myself this as I try to force myself to sleep.
But all I can think of are the way you speak and look.

Tell me now, how was I wrong?
Tell me now, was I lacking?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?

I really desired you like crazy.
I always prayed that I could see you again.
I feel as though I will die like this.
Can’t you be the one coming to me now?
Please.
Please.

Forgive and Forget?

We always can forgive anyone and whatever they done, but do we can forget whatever that happen?
To forgive and to forget is a really something that bind each other, you can't really forgive if you cant forget.
Am I right?
I try to forget you, to forget whatever you done, to forget the pain and to forgive.
But seem that forget is harder than forgiving.
Love really a problem I think, but when He love us do He also get through all this?
I think maybe He go through even more and even more hurtful than what we having.
But yet He choose to continue to love.
New year, new sem, I also wanted to continue to love.
Not in just in the form of relationship but also everything.
To love what I having and what am I now.

After so long only know what had happen on one of my friend (a she)
Just an advise.
Don't ever regret.
Is better to try and lose and get the courage up to try compare to losing without trying.
The courage can be find anywhere, from us maybe? XD
and for sure is from Him.
He not even fear of fail, fear of not getting back love.
He do whatever best for us.
So please do whatever the best for your own and the other one. What you think is right.
May God Bless you.

For me? God blessed me a lot just that I am irrational and intolerance.
I think I need to continue to seek for Him, His path.

2012

A letter to 2012 me
1. Don't forget God
2. Don't forget to share
3. Don't forget to love
4. Be patient
5. Be understanding
6. Be wise
7. Be a listener
8. Be gentle
9.Be kind
10. Be myself

Sometimes is weird that when people keep critics or commenting others but yet we overlook what our mistake and what we being.
So i hope through out this year I can keep this 10 things to myself and self motivating. cheers

Freedom and Love

You tell me you want freedom
Yes, I give it to you
You tell me you want someone to rely on
Yes, I give it to you
You tell me you want to be princess
Yes I give it to you
You tell me you are selfish and you wan everything
Yes you are.
I not really sure what am I now,I willing to keep giving, keep owe everyone
but yet what I want is you to know that what is called love
I am not firm with my stand although you had told me we are not suppose to be together.
I should left u alone and not care anything
I should not anger with your mistake and teaching you
I should not help you so much
I should not care of you so much
I failed and I keep letting you hurt me everytime
another time and another time
You tell me I am stubborn
You tell me you are stubborn too
Yet I willing to change for you
but do you?
What is meaning of freedom which you keep telling me and holding firm on it?
And what is meaning of love for me?
Maybe goodbye was the answer.

Away

I think I want a break from everything
I want to go away for some time on my own
Meeting new people and new faces maybe

无题

有时，我在想我是不是一个大笨蛋。
我一直都相信她，
我不理会她骗了我多少次，
我不理会她利用我多少次，
我不理会她不理我多少次，
我不理会她生气我多少次，
我不理会她误会我多少次，
我更不理会她现在还爱不爱我。

我几时变得那么的懦弱，我也不知。
我只要平平淡淡的谈恋爱，可能最平淡的才是最难得的吧。。。