Bitter day

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
Even though the weather is great, my mood is not
I think you’re teasing me, and I get mad
I struggle because of these situations I can’t handle
The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened
You were living just fine
It’s not fair, this is unfair
People who look at me while passing by pity me
Nothing goes right
I missed the place where I was supposed to get off at this morning
Because I suddenly thought of you, I got off at a lonesome station
Because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling
I walked for a long time like that
I miss you, who I’ve been only hating, yet again
Because the days when I was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
No matter what I say, it will sound like an excuse
Even if I say that all of this was for you
Because you were too good for me
Because I was uncomfortable as if I were wearing clothes that didn’t match me
You’re beautiful, but you withered away from me
How do you think I felt while looking at that?
We should have just never started
I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time
I thought I would be carefree once I let you go, but that wasn’t the case
My mind understands that we’ve separated
But my heart doesn’t want to accept it
Missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day
I’ll be the one to take all the pain
I’d like it if you were just happy
So that the choice I make now doesn’t go to waste
So that I don’t regret it
I’ll always pray for you
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
It’ll be forgotten little by little
When time passes, I’ll be able to smile and reminisce
Instead of that common saying that time heals everything
Tell me something that actually works
You can receive so much more love than what you got from me
You’re as beautiful as ever
You said we’d be together forever
In the end, we’re the same as others
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
That day will come