Gifts

Sometimes I wonder when You give me this life is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You plan my life this way is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You let me experience the denial is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when I am sorrow and been reject is it a Gift from you also?

Thanks God actually I learned a lot.
I always stray my path from You but You still touched me in so many ways,
I always forgotten You yet You still remember me,
I always deny You but You not yet give up on me and still accept Me,
Thanks Lord.

I having a good time with You,
You let my life brighten with her,
Is her a gift from You too?
Lord may You look upon us.
Although we may face denial, we may face prosecute, may I have the strength to face it,
God I know You will bless us as always,
But Lord please let me know You more,
Use me, mold me, and let me be your light and salt,
Because You had given us the greatest gift, Peace, Joy and Love.
Thanks Lord.

Amen

Unknown

I not really know what happen to me.
I feel like i being anti-social.
I feel like my surrounding full with many unknown.
Human always scare of unknown so do me.
We scare ghost because we don't know how it look like,
We scare alien because we don't know how it being,
We scare exams because we don't know how to do,
We scare future because we don't know how are our future be.
It seem like Human always fear something they don't know.
I am fear to... However may God with me and I know that everything ahead is planned by Him.
This give me great comfort from this unknown world. Because my God knows everything.

Recently life is normal, nothing much just a normal university student life,
but sometime I just wonder why I being at here,
My temper is not very good,
I am emotional,
I am aggressive,
I don't know to control my temper.
However I hope I can change it.
I hope that I will not hurt others with my evil tongue anymore.
but instead of just hoping I also try my best to improve it.
Lord you give me the strength, confident, and peace that You tell me I can do it.

These days I hope can write my blog in a prayer form. Since i got many thing wanted to express to Him. I know lord will read my blog and very hi-tech cause He is the all know~

confirmation

Since long time I haven't updated my blog.
It been busy lately for assignment, presentation, quiz and etc
Its been sometime I get along with her, I found out many thing had happen in me and her.
I been accuse, been gossip, even been disrespect.
Sometime life make me feed-up but luckly I having her all along.
I kinda sad for her for getting along all those bad things because of me.
We even quarrel for a time yesterday because I want a confirmation about our relationship stand point.
Is kinda hard for me because I not really know where I stand for now.
However I forget to care about how she feel in this.
Really emotional these days due to hectic workload, deadlines and some personal problem.
I really need to learn to control my emotion.

p/s: I really do care thats why I asked