2012

A letter to 2012 me
1. Don't forget God
2. Don't forget to share
3. Don't forget to love
4. Be patient
5. Be understanding
6. Be wise
7. Be a listener
8. Be gentle
9.Be kind
10. Be myself

Sometimes is weird that when people keep critics or commenting others but yet we overlook what our mistake and what we being.
So i hope through out this year I can keep this 10 things to myself and self motivating. cheers

Freedom and Love

You tell me you want freedom
Yes, I give it to you
You tell me you want someone to rely on
Yes, I give it to you
You tell me you want to be princess
Yes I give it to you
You tell me you are selfish and you wan everything
Yes you are.
I not really sure what am I now,I willing to keep giving, keep owe everyone
but yet what I want is you to know that what is called love
I am not firm with my stand although you had told me we are not suppose to be together.
I should left u alone and not care anything
I should not anger with your mistake and teaching you
I should not help you so much
I should not care of you so much
I failed and I keep letting you hurt me everytime
another time and another time
You tell me I am stubborn
You tell me you are stubborn too
Yet I willing to change for you
but do you?
What is meaning of freedom which you keep telling me and holding firm on it?
And what is meaning of love for me?
Maybe goodbye was the answer.

Away

I think I want a break from everything
I want to go away for some time on my own
Meeting new people and new faces maybe

无题

有时，我在想我是不是一个大笨蛋。
我一直都相信她，
我不理会她骗了我多少次，
我不理会她利用我多少次，
我不理会她不理我多少次，
我不理会她生气我多少次，
我不理会她误会我多少次，
我更不理会她现在还爱不爱我。

我几时变得那么的懦弱，我也不知。
我只要平平淡淡的谈恋爱，可能最平淡的才是最难得的吧。。。

I am a fucking retard

I sometimes just wanted to meet her but it seem too hard for her
I sometimes just wanted to talk with her but it seem impossible for her
I sometimes just wanted to walk with her but she seem no time for it
I sometimes just wanted to miss you but you seem doesnt really care
If you doesnt care of any of these why we are being together at the 1st place?
Do my request too much for you?
Do what I want too much?
Others wanted to meet but cant
I wanted to meet but you don't want
Am I the selfish one? or it is both of us? or it just you?
You tell me you are sad and unhappy when i say you when you dont want to meet or chat
but how was my feeling in the 1st place where I having a panther but still seem like dont have and being alone for such a long time?

在烦恼什么？

我们每天都放不下一些事情让我们烦恼着，
也让我们错过了好多在我们身边的快乐，
当我们错过了这些我们转头发现我们到底在烦些什么，
所错过的爱，所错过的陪伴，所错过的青春 到底值得让我们烦恼吗？
别烦一些不需要烦恼的事了， 而是珍惜现在你拥有的，
家人，朋友，爱情， 以及生命。
当你学习珍惜时，你发现你所烦的一切烦恼都没了。
那，
你还在烦恼什么？

Real Steel sketches : Noisy Boy

Recently watched real steel and I feel the noisy boy is really awesome compare to the main character robot (atom), so I draw it! XDXD

 

My Sketch

Original

Bitter day

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
Even though the weather is great, my mood is not
I think you’re teasing me, and I get mad
I struggle because of these situations I can’t handle
The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened
You were living just fine
It’s not fair, this is unfair
People who look at me while passing by pity me
Nothing goes right
I missed the place where I was supposed to get off at this morning
Because I suddenly thought of you, I got off at a lonesome station
Because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling
I walked for a long time like that
I miss you, who I’ve been only hating, yet again
Because the days when I was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
No matter what I say, it will sound like an excuse
Even if I say that all of this was for you
Because you were too good for me
Because I was uncomfortable as if I were wearing clothes that didn’t match me
You’re beautiful, but you withered away from me
How do you think I felt while looking at that?
We should have just never started
I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time
I thought I would be carefree once I let you go, but that wasn’t the case
My mind understands that we’ve separated
But my heart doesn’t want to accept it
Missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day
I’ll be the one to take all the pain
I’d like it if you were just happy
So that the choice I make now doesn’t go to waste
So that I don’t regret it
I’ll always pray for you
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
It’ll be forgotten little by little
When time passes, I’ll be able to smile and reminisce
Instead of that common saying that time heals everything
Tell me something that actually works
You can receive so much more love than what you got from me
You’re as beautiful as ever
You said we’d be together forever
In the end, we’re the same as others
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
That day will come

Reply

Just found out I can actually acting stupid in a way that I don't know anything.
However there is always a limit of it.
I may act stupid and don't look pass it.
But please just don't over my limit.
May god continue to strengthen me, to be more patient on everything and the passion on Him.

和你相遇不是用来生气的

有一天，我坐在回家的公车上，乘客很多。一对上班族男女恰巧站在我身边，吸引了我的目光。
可能因为人多，男孩将手臂围挡在女孩的腰上，怕后面的人挤到了她，并轻声地问“累不累？待会想吃些什么？”
只见女孩不耐烦地回答：“我已经够烦了，吃什么都还不先决定好，每次都要问我。”
男孩一脸无辜的低下头，而后说了一段令我印象深刻的话：“让你决定是因为希望能够陪你吃你喜欢的东西，然后看着你拥有满足的笑容，把今天工作中的不愉快暂时忘掉。你工作上所受的委屈我没法帮你，我所能做的也只有这样。”
女孩听了后，满怀愧疚地说声对不起。男孩这才似乎重燃信心般说：“没关系，和你相遇不是用来生气的，只要你开心就好。”而后亲吻了女孩头发。
公车到站，男孩牵着女孩的手下了车，汽车开动，我再回头看看这对情侣，男孩依旧小心翼翼地保护着女孩。
说得多好呀，“和你相遇，不是用来生气的。”两个人相恋，多么来之不易的缘分，何苦要用生气来抹杀所有的幸福。即使当爱情面临小小的险阻，我们也要心平气和地的对待对方，然后用爱和勇敢去化解，而不是用生气的方式来鲁莽对待。

picked from : Facebook

 I read this article and think I do really need to think back how I treated people, not just someone you love but also apply on everyone. Meeting each other is a fate and is a great thing but we always because of our emotion we killed the relationship between each other.

Lord please mold me to be a better person with patient. You always shows your patient, mercy and forgiveness to us, and I want to learn from You and become your light and salt. Amen

Shame

I am not shame how I am to be and who I am with and with my action. But do you?

Gifts

Sometimes I wonder when You give me this life is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You plan my life this way is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You let me experience the denial is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when I am sorrow and been reject is it a Gift from you also?

Thanks God actually I learned a lot.
I always stray my path from You but You still touched me in so many ways,
I always forgotten You yet You still remember me,
I always deny You but You not yet give up on me and still accept Me,
Thanks Lord.

I having a good time with You,
You let my life brighten with her,
Is her a gift from You too?
Lord may You look upon us.
Although we may face denial, we may face prosecute, may I have the strength to face it,
God I know You will bless us as always,
But Lord please let me know You more,
Use me, mold me, and let me be your light and salt,
Because You had given us the greatest gift, Peace, Joy and Love.
Thanks Lord.

Amen

Unknown

I not really know what happen to me.
I feel like i being anti-social.
I feel like my surrounding full with many unknown.
Human always scare of unknown so do me.
We scare ghost because we don't know how it look like,
We scare alien because we don't know how it being,
We scare exams because we don't know how to do,
We scare future because we don't know how are our future be.
It seem like Human always fear something they don't know.
I am fear to... However may God with me and I know that everything ahead is planned by Him.
This give me great comfort from this unknown world. Because my God knows everything.

Recently life is normal, nothing much just a normal university student life,
but sometime I just wonder why I being at here,
My temper is not very good,
I am emotional,
I am aggressive,
I don't know to control my temper.
However I hope I can change it.
I hope that I will not hurt others with my evil tongue anymore.
but instead of just hoping I also try my best to improve it.
Lord you give me the strength, confident, and peace that You tell me I can do it.

These days I hope can write my blog in a prayer form. Since i got many thing wanted to express to Him. I know lord will read my blog and very hi-tech cause He is the all know~

confirmation

Since long time I haven't updated my blog.
It been busy lately for assignment, presentation, quiz and etc
Its been sometime I get along with her, I found out many thing had happen in me and her.
I been accuse, been gossip, even been disrespect.
Sometime life make me feed-up but luckly I having her all along.
I kinda sad for her for getting along all those bad things because of me.
We even quarrel for a time yesterday because I want a confirmation about our relationship stand point.
Is kinda hard for me because I not really know where I stand for now.
However I forget to care about how she feel in this.
Really emotional these days due to hectic workload, deadlines and some personal problem.
I really need to learn to control my emotion.

p/s: I really do care thats why I asked

In Christ alone

Many thing happens
Sometimes keep think I still immature
Perhaps is true~
But I still believe in one thing
In Jesus alone I can overcome everything~
Amen

p/s: no comments on everything that happen today and please dun ask

I am back!

Since a long time didn't write any post. It feel like a month ago?
I am not really busy actually just that had sometime for myself.
Here is a summary of my month. XD
1.I going through baptism
2. I joining SEDEX logo design competition
3. Attend a talk that accidentally enlight me? lolz

It kinda short but what I wan say here is.... I maybe fall in love again LOLZ
These few days always wanted to meet her, chat with her and even if can confess le~
Hmmmm...... but is it ok for me? Since I just scare dun wan dwell in my past... Need some advise

All about Him? Her?

Everything in my mind and heart is about her,
Is kinda funny but however everyone will got someone in their own heart
I am pretty sure with this, just that who is the ONE,
he/she can be ur friend, family, partner and etc
For me, I not really sure what kind of status we are now.
Somehow, if there is someone really in ur mind and heart
And everything u done is all about him or her,
Please appreciate him/her and cherish every moment with him/her.
Cheers everyone!

chocolate

I love dark chocolates specially bitter one,
85% cocoa suits me best and it really make me feel happy.
Sometimes I wonder, why I didn't eat anything sweet,
but instead eat something that bitter
and seldom can be accept by someone.
But that make life feel good right?
The bitterness and the slight sweetness in it that make it so unique,
If life is just sweet without bitter u will be easily drunk in it and doesn't feel the real sweetness in it
Is the bitterness that make us noe hw wonderful the sweet taste is... =)

Best of Me

I wanna get the best out of me,
I wanna be the best not on myself but with God in it,
I prayed, that I dun wan be anyone else,
I dun wanna be someone that is not me,
Everyone got their own potential,
own gifts,
own blessing,
own grace,
own experience,
I wanna be the best of me with God will.
Lord may u clear my mind from confusion mist,
Lord may u clear my doubt,
Hinder me from evil thoughts, tongue and actions.
In Jesus name I can~
Amen

伤

如果你要有希望就不要一直推开我，
不是我让你失望而是你让了我们两人失望。
如果你当初心软，
希望我们俩还能在一起的话你不会对我说两次那句伤害我的话。
我知道你是会有那样的举动可是你会不会觉得应该时候不要那样了。
因为我们两都会失去我们当初爱的感觉了。
很多人一直叫我放弃，
但我一直守着那份我们当初的感觉。
你可能没发现，
我的钥匙圈上的吊饰是你编制给我的，
我一直一直带在身上，
为何呢?
哭也哭了，
我还是守候你，
直到你找到你的幸福

Giving up

I think is the time for me to give up,
Although I always hope that somehow we will be together again,
Although I always hope that someday I can smile with you again,
I think is true what elden tell me,
God will not do something that lead both of us suffer,
Maybe is time for me to give up and accept it as God plan,
Maybe if you see this post,
you will think I am a person easy in giving up on u,
U will think I not care about you,
Or even the feeling of thinking me as someone that,
"wanted you when I want, and kick you away when I dun wan you."
But I think i don't want dwell with past anymore.
I am sorry, I think u deserve better,
Life need to move on, right?
There is too much thing you don't know about me,
There is too much thing even myself also don't know.
But Lord Father, I know You understand me the most,
You plan the best for me and her.

Forgotten Fairytale

There is no good ending in real life,

We always seek for it but what we found is actually a broken dream,

We always forgotten the fairytale,

the childhood memories,

that always brings happiness,

When we eventually grow up, we found out that,

Reality is sucks.

We tend to run to our dream world,

don't want to face the fact that world is cruel.

God, please blessed me,

God, please have grace on me,

God, please forgive me,

God, please let me having the heart of child,

to accept, to be faithful on you.

Just like a fairytale to have the good ending,

Living happily ever after in Your grace.

To be eternal with you, serve you, praise you, and worship you.

Amen

呐喊！

第一次以华语写部落格，多怪不怪那些不会华文的抱歉了。

我心里很沉闷，那就喊吧！
喊了许久。。。
干！我喊了但还不痛快啊。。。

我心里很急躁，那就放慢脚步。
我慢得连蜗牛都嫌我慢了。。。
干！但我还是烦。

我心里很迷茫，那就冷静下来。
沉思了许久。。。
干！我还是很迷糊。

过了许久，时间也那样过去，逃跑了很久，我明知我逃避。。
逃避着过去，逃避着自己，逃避着现实。。。

心里的呐喊。

心里的迷茫。

心里的恐惧。

心里的悲哀。

心里的沉重。

我还是面对不了自己的另一个我。我害怕的是自己，而不是其他人。

Home Coming

Just went back to Melaka last weekend.
The purpose of me going back can be say many bah,

1. Accompany Min Min go Melaka since she wan to visit her grandmom
2. Meet my friends specially Ah Chu
3. Eat bak chang
4. watch movie bah~ XD

When look back Melaka, found out it was like just yesterday I coming back, everything still the same. Melaka still is my home sweet home bah, although need a 6 hour trip but I still willing to come back.

During this trip get to watch X-men 1st class at the new jusco cinema... LOLZ it is still better than the Ipoh Cinema~

This trip kinda great for me although keep myself at house most of the time, but really have a nice chat with mom. During the road trip is not boring too since gt Min Min accompany me to chat.

It also my 1st time experience reach UTP at 4 am and soaked with rain water... haha~ dun care bah~ XD

Thx God I reached safely...

Movie Review: Pirates of Caribbean: On Stranger Tides

Ok, this movie is really epic and I watch it last Friday which is 20th May.
The movie is just awesome and the show is just blasting ur nerve and sense every moment.
This time the Pirates of caribbean is not related with the past poc (pirate of caribbean, its too long so I will use poc to subtitude).
So it will not too hard for those audience that is 1st time in poc to understand since it is not related with the past poc.

POC posters

So the story is about Jack Sparrow been told to find fountain of youth, while the Spain is on the move to find it too. Jack Sparrow been cheated and kidnap to The queens revenge Captain Black Beard ship to the journey to find the fountain of youth. This is because Captain Black Beard been told that it will be kill by an one leg man. He is scare... lolz (Captain Black Beard had awesome necromancy power)

So the story is more about the journey and it full with actions and humor. As usual Jack Sparrow play a great role and make the movie more lively. I don't want to be a spoiler for such a great movie. Go and watch it yourself. =D

Storyline: 8/10
Action and comedy: 8/10
Props and effects: 7/10
Overall: 8/10

A great movie to be watch! It just worth your ticket! Strongly recommended.

Movie Review: Insidious

Just have my another movie during my semester break, you all maybe think I am kinda rich for watching around 4 movie in one week? But who cares, I just a movie-holic. Yesterday actually wanted to watch Pirates of Caribbean but already promise my friend to watch it today, so I watch Insidious~ Wooooo.... based on the name it is a horror movie and I seldom watch horror movie since I am person that easily get scared but this time I not really care anymore since this movie is the same producer as "SAW" that really make me looking forward for it.

The movie poster

Based on the poster and the movie name I at 1st expecting something like demon possessing but actually it is not. It say about a boy that can leave his soul from his body and become a traveler when he is asleep. However one day he lost himself when traveling and the demon and ghosts wanted to get his body that is spiritless as a vessel. Then many ghosts appear and supernatural things happen. Then his dad also a astral (means can get his soul out of his body) go and find his son. And his son actually been chain by a devil. A freaking devil. Then his father childhood horror also come back and haunt his father.

Overall the story is a "shocking" one since it keep scare you from nowhere. The storyline is a bit funny since at the end it become like a hero fighting monsters to save his son. Many of the shocking part really make my heart stop and just wanted to shout "WTF" but maybe is because i am too timid. I expecting something gross since it from "SAW" producer, however there is nothing gross at all just some freaking ghost that scared my shit off me.

If wanted to compare with Thailand and japan horror movie, It kinda lose them in sense of ghost design and how the ghost appear. But for a western horror (ghost) movie it is a breakthrough that really make me impress in scaring us with some zombie look ghost that I normally will not scare of.

Here is the rating,
storyline: 5/10
props: 6/10
horror elements: 8/10
effects: 7/10
overall: 7/10

It is a great horror movie that keep scare and shock you. So remember don't eat your popcorn and drink your coke when the scene is at night specially. It sure will spill all over the place. XD

Today view of yesterday life

Just fight with my mom yesterday.
I am confuse either I really not care about her or what.
She keep thinking like I wanted to kick her away from home.
The way of she think really make me mad and quarrel with her.
But feel sorry, maybe I really haven't done my responsible as son.
She now play cold war with me, I also don't know how to speak with her.

I also changed my spectacle yesterday.
Changed a black one, kinda normal.
Luckily my eyes power not really increase.

These days really rotten and play maple story since the new patch "big bang" going to out soon.


The poster looks cool for me from previous maplestory patch poster.
The patch will be on today and I can't wait for it.
Ok la kinda lazy to write since no inspiration. Off to maple world

Movie Review: Fast 5

Ok, I having a movie spreed pass this week and now another movie to be review "Fast Five". As you all know it is the continuous of fast and furious. As a boy like me, we surely loves big machine that runs fast! Errrrmmmm.... aka Racing cars.

Here is the poster that I get from the Internet seem to be cool~

The Movie happen after the story of fast and furious 4 (I mean continuous), this time story will be happening at Rio, Brazil! Many nasty gangster and what you expect? Gun power! Fighting! Racing cars! and including HOT girls!

This story where Dominic (main actor) steal a car that contain a chip full with information of the Rio mafia boss money hideout and amount. While some agents from United States also came to catch him. He plan a team to breakdown the mafia boss vault that located in a police station (Ya, is really a police station). Then the story just move on with it...

From this movie actually kinda sad because lack of racing part where most of the audience expect from a fast and furious movie. Mostly is gun shot scene and some action pack. The racing part seem to be isolated and just take not more than 1/10 of the screening time. It is kinda lame for a "Fast" movie. But at least there is one scene that meet what I expected from Fast 5. To know it just go and watch the movie, I dun wan to be a spoiler. XD

The storyline is average and can be expected, nothing much surprise and the flow is just ok and still make sense compare to the previous fnf movie.

Storyline: 7/10
Props:5/10
(not really much cars appear)
Actions: 7/10
effects: 5/10
(since not really many racing in the movie)

Overall: 6/10

It can consider as an average movie, nothing special and still worth watching it if you really like some combination of fast cars and guns.

Movie Review: Thor

Thor, God of Thunder. This superhero movie seem to be attractive to me. I am a person that kinda like superhero movie. Although I not really know what Thor comic about, however what I know about Thor is he is sexy hot guy with a hammer and cast some thunder.

Thor poster

The story line of this story start from a intergalactic war between frost giant and the Asgard (the Thor planet). As u all know, the bad guys always lose and the Odin (Thor dad) take their ultimate weapon (watch the movie to know it). The frost giant as usual taking some revenge and then wanted to steal back the weapon but fail. Thor at that time is an ignorance guy and plan to start a war again with the frost giants. Odin is so damn angry and then cast out Thor to human world where he meet some hot science girl. His hammer also been cast and curse to other place. Then his brother Loki who is the main villain is the one that plan all this up and wanted to kill Thor. But the end as you know Thor with his super freaking awesome power kick everyone some asses and save Asgard and separate away from the hot science girl.

For me the movie is good for a superhero movie. Nice effect, nice action, nice costume, and nice story. The thunder effect is freaking awesome and the fighting scene using his hammer is so unique and creative that I feel it is great although a bit lame when a hulk size guy wielding a short puny hammer. The story is great at the beginning but the sudden change of event is the failure.

Story: 7/10
effect: 8/10
action: 7/10
props: 9/10
overall:7.5/10

It is a worth to watch movie and worth for the RM7 ticket!

I will be watching fast and furious 5 soon and I will post the review later on. Stay tune~

Movie Review: Priest

Watched "Priest" on Thursday and at the 1st view of its poster it kinda cool, got the assassin creed feel... So I think it will be like a sci-fi assassin creed that kick some vampire asses.

The poster I saw at the cinema lobby. Kinda cool right.

So instead of "Thor" I watched this movie. For the introduction, it is kinda cool of it to use animation to show the freaking ass power of the vampires, however it does not show the power of the Priest and it make me even curious to continue the movie.

The story plot in the near future where human live in a city protected by the church. It kinda emo setting and no sun light at all (typical vampire movie setting). Priest during that time is just a minority that been isolate by the society because they been claim dangerous. Their services is no longer needed because all the vampires had died however not all been killed *MWHAHHA~~~* . Then, main story happen when one day when the main character (the best Priest ever) daughter been capture and he as a Priest betrayed the church and go kick some vampire asses and then saw his rival (one of the priest that become vampire) and then kick his ass too and then to be continue....(Maybe wanted to make Priest 2?)

The priest and the main villain

Ok the story is kinda old school however the vampire designs are not like the twilight cute and handsome type, but just some freaking monster like creature. The creature looks cool to me and their effect is kinda great. The action also seem cool however the most of the coolest part can be seen in the trailer, this really make me disappointing since I buy the ticket to see the others cool action and this is what I got? A trailer action?

Now the marks I allocate for it,

Story: 6/10
Props: 7/10
Actions:6/10
Effects: 8/10
Overall: 7/10

It is worth watching if you really wanted to watch the effects and Maggi Q. However the action pack is kinda disappointing for an action sci-fi movie since u can have it on the trailer itself.

Cherish

Today one of my bro friend (girl) just cry on my lap. Sometime I nt really noe wat to do. I juz can pap on her back and tell her everything will be alright since I nt really noe wat happen.
i just noe it is about relationship problem bah. Come for holiday also cry in early morning. Sad.
My mom, she arrrr.... I so scare her wound will open. But she still keep say nothing nothing. LOLZ but if nt care keep say here pain there pain, when worried then no pain. Maybe all mom is so bah. dun wan us worry her but wan us to give attention to her. hahaha~ but this also mean she is alright.

Thanks God for everything I have,
Thanks God for the blessings,
Thanks God for the challenges that mean to train me,
Thanks God for the lessons,
Thanks God for the Life I having now,
I will cherish this every moment,
Thanks God. Amen

Drunk

Finally it is my semester break which is 2 weeks and much more shorter than previous semester break which is 2 months.

Not really having the holiday mood, everything seems normal to me.
Slept for just 6 hours today lesser than I used to during exam week.
I dream about her too much, I even miss her now. Oh God, I really love drunk @@
I always pray to God that I will let my relationship life to Him and show me signs if that I really can be with her. And I think God tell me to go for it.
However there are few problems and there is some invisible wall in me that make me can't go through it.
Lord pls give me strength to overcome it.

Last day of Final

Emotion unstable these few days, maybe not been seen but I actually emo.
Few things happen but dun wan care anymore since it is a past.
Today will be programming and seismic paper and both is killer subject for me.
Mom still warded.
Anywhere everything else is that I heard My friend Derick Received Christ yesterday. haha at least something to joy for.
After today is the end foe my 2nd year 1st semester. Kinda sad though feel like suddenly old le. XD
I dreamt her again, lolz even in super tired condition. I even ask her to marry me in the dream. =.= what la~ I now stress exam thought will dream about what I read or today papers question.
Do I really miss the new her so much? I really love drunk~




I saw it somewhere in the net and I feel motivated again because I noe that Father(I mean lord father here)will always touch my head and tell me that "Is Ok" I being shin chan while his father is Jesus Christ.

Sorrow Joy

So this it a story of a stupid doctor in a government hospital.
A patient saying she having stomachache and it is pain like hell that kind.
She told the doctor then the doctor check and say nothing just normal stomachache then she really really very pain and request for a specialist.
The doctor grumpy but still let her meet the specialist, the specialist scan her again and say she need to cut her appendix.
Oh ok, So she go through the operation since it just a small operation. The operation should be at 10a.m but she get her operation at 2 p.m.
This still ok, the operation is successful but due to the doctor carelessness, her throat been hurt by breathing machine. The doctor do not notice it until 11 pm
Then at 11pm, she suffer and the doctor send her to ICU and then having a throat operation for sewing the wound in the throat. Thanks God she is ok now and still hospitalize.
So, what we can tell from this story? How was it if the patient was your mother.
Ya, the patient was my mom. During this Mother Day I so afraid will lose her, I een think of letting go my final exam and just go back and meet her.
Thanks God, she is ok now. I swear to earn money to send my mom to private hospital and pay the money minded doctors for their treatment at least it is better. I willing to lost all the money as long she stay longer dude.
Happy Mother's day all~

Namadairo

Sometime I wonder is it true that I really like her?
Tears drop everytime I think about it.
Past, I drop my tears because I love her,
Now, I drop my tears because I happy for her,
Future, I drop my tears because I not really know what actually I want.
Frankly, I loved another her, I nt really sure she is like a shadow of you or she really attracted me.
But I think I really love her but I can't love her. Irony.
My tears full with colour, colour of my life.
From sorrow to joy, from depression to excited.
Maybe I really need wait the time for my heart to prepare for her.

Finals

Finals is coming
1st paper is clastic Sedimentology

Ya It is study of sand! Beaches and etc..

However thanks God everything going smooth when study just a bit flu yesterday.
And However I keep missing her, I think I should not but just one day if I nt gtalk her or meet her, I feel uneasy. Maybe I am love drunk.

Aza aza! Need prepare for the paper soon at 9 and the rest of the papers too! God Bless

Reborn

I accepted Christ at 14/4/2011
It will be my new birthday, the day where i rebirth.
Thanks God to let me realize that You is the one and only my Saviour.
Lord Jesus, You enter Jerusalem and suffer for us, for our sins.
God u had suffer so much for us,
You had done everything just for the sake of us.
You suffer the humiliation from the Sinners.
You suffer the pain and crucified on the cross.
You bleed for us to cleanse our sins.
You died on the cross and reborn after 3 days.
You had win against the dead and all glory to you Lord.
That will be the last miracle that you had show us and knowing you as Living God.
However we keep make u sad, make u disappointed.
Lord, please give me the open heart to repent upon You.
Lord, Please make me moved and fill by Holy Spirit that all I done is for You.
Lord, You really are my Saviour and I am a just a sinner that been blessed by You.
Lord, I thank you for being with me all the time.
Lord, I thank you that you forgive my sin and my foolishness.
Lord, I give all of myself to You.
Amen

I loved yesterday

Is a long time since I write blog.
I plan to create a new one.
I loved yesterday
because of yesterday, there is today me.
I keep hold on this quote.
I want to record
every memories,
every experience,
every feelings,
every happiness,
every grace,
every sorrow,
every tears,
that had been my yesterday and keep me hold strong for tomorrow and today.