Bitter day

A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
Even though the weather is great, my mood is not
I think you’re teasing me, and I get mad
I struggle because of these situations I can’t handle
The exact opposite of me, the world continues spinning as if nothing happened
You were living just fine
It’s not fair, this is unfair
People who look at me while passing by pity me
Nothing goes right
I missed the place where I was supposed to get off at this morning
Because I suddenly thought of you, I got off at a lonesome station
Because it seemed lonely today of all days, tears just kept falling
I walked for a long time like that
I miss you, who I’ve been only hating, yet again
Because the days when I was weak with no strength to hold onto you were so pathetic
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
No matter what I say, it will sound like an excuse
Even if I say that all of this was for you
Because you were too good for me
Because I was uncomfortable as if I were wearing clothes that didn’t match me
You’re beautiful, but you withered away from me
How do you think I felt while looking at that?
We should have just never started
I shouldn’t have looked into your eyes that first time
I thought I would be carefree once I let you go, but that wasn’t the case
My mind understands that we’ve separated
But my heart doesn’t want to accept it
Missing you and trying to erase you, it repeats every day
I’ll be the one to take all the pain
I’d like it if you were just happy
So that the choice I make now doesn’t go to waste
So that I don’t regret it
I’ll always pray for you
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
I might smile when the time comes
But I guess I can’t help it right now
I can’t do anything
Even though I’m sad because I’m thinking of you again right now
Even though it will be difficult, I’ll keep trying to erase you
It’ll be forgotten little by little
When time passes, I’ll be able to smile and reminisce
Instead of that common saying that time heals everything
Tell me something that actually works
You can receive so much more love than what you got from me
You’re as beautiful as ever
You said we’d be together forever
In the end, we’re the same as others
A bitter day, it will all get erased like this
It will all be forgotten someday
That day will come

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Just found out I can actually acting stupid in a way that I don't know anything.
However there is always a limit of it.
I may act stupid and don't look pass it.
But please just don't over my limit.
May god continue to strengthen me, to be more patient on everything and the passion on Him.

和你相遇不是用来生气的

有一天，我坐在回家的公车上，乘客很多。一对上班族男女恰巧站在我身边，吸引了我的目光。
可能因为人多，男孩将手臂围挡在女孩的腰上，怕后面的人挤到了她，并轻声地问“累不累？待会想吃些什么？”
只见女孩不耐烦地回答：“我已经够烦了，吃什么都还不先决定好，每次都要问我。”
男孩一脸无辜的低下头，而后说了一段令我印象深刻的话：“让你决定是因为希望能够陪你吃你喜欢的东西，然后看着你拥有满足的笑容，把今天工作中的不愉快暂时忘掉。你工作上所受的委屈我没法帮你，我所能做的也只有这样。”
女孩听了后，满怀愧疚地说声对不起。男孩这才似乎重燃信心般说：“没关系，和你相遇不是用来生气的，只要你开心就好。”而后亲吻了女孩头发。
公车到站，男孩牵着女孩的手下了车，汽车开动，我再回头看看这对情侣，男孩依旧小心翼翼地保护着女孩。
说得多好呀，“和你相遇，不是用来生气的。”两个人相恋，多么来之不易的缘分，何苦要用生气来抹杀所有的幸福。即使当爱情面临小小的险阻，我们也要心平气和地的对待对方，然后用爱和勇敢去化解，而不是用生气的方式来鲁莽对待。

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 I read this article and think I do really need to think back how I treated people, not just someone you love but also apply on everyone. Meeting each other is a fate and is a great thing but we always because of our emotion we killed the relationship between each other.

Lord please mold me to be a better person with patient. You always shows your patient, mercy and forgiveness to us, and I want to learn from You and become your light and salt. Amen

Shame

I am not shame how I am to be and who I am with and with my action. But do you?

Gifts

Sometimes I wonder when You give me this life is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You plan my life this way is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when You let me experience the denial is it a gift?
Sometimes I wonder when I am sorrow and been reject is it a Gift from you also?

Thanks God actually I learned a lot.
I always stray my path from You but You still touched me in so many ways,
I always forgotten You yet You still remember me,
I always deny You but You not yet give up on me and still accept Me,
Thanks Lord.

I having a good time with You,
You let my life brighten with her,
Is her a gift from You too?
Lord may You look upon us.
Although we may face denial, we may face prosecute, may I have the strength to face it,
God I know You will bless us as always,
But Lord please let me know You more,
Use me, mold me, and let me be your light and salt,
Because You had given us the greatest gift, Peace, Joy and Love.
Thanks Lord.

Amen

Unknown

I not really know what happen to me.
I feel like i being anti-social.
I feel like my surrounding full with many unknown.
Human always scare of unknown so do me.
We scare ghost because we don't know how it look like,
We scare alien because we don't know how it being,
We scare exams because we don't know how to do,
We scare future because we don't know how are our future be.
It seem like Human always fear something they don't know.
I am fear to... However may God with me and I know that everything ahead is planned by Him.
This give me great comfort from this unknown world. Because my God knows everything.

Recently life is normal, nothing much just a normal university student life,
but sometime I just wonder why I being at here,
My temper is not very good,
I am emotional,
I am aggressive,
I don't know to control my temper.
However I hope I can change it.
I hope that I will not hurt others with my evil tongue anymore.
but instead of just hoping I also try my best to improve it.
Lord you give me the strength, confident, and peace that You tell me I can do it.

These days I hope can write my blog in a prayer form. Since i got many thing wanted to express to Him. I know lord will read my blog and very hi-tech cause He is the all know~

confirmation

Since long time I haven't updated my blog.
It been busy lately for assignment, presentation, quiz and etc
Its been sometime I get along with her, I found out many thing had happen in me and her.
I been accuse, been gossip, even been disrespect.
Sometime life make me feed-up but luckly I having her all along.
I kinda sad for her for getting along all those bad things because of me.
We even quarrel for a time yesterday because I want a confirmation about our relationship stand point.
Is kinda hard for me because I not really know where I stand for now.
However I forget to care about how she feel in this.
Really emotional these days due to hectic workload, deadlines and some personal problem.
I really need to learn to control my emotion.

p/s: I really do care thats why I asked